Results of stress

Being handicapped is no easy thing. Most of the time its not so bad; nothing I can do about it anyway. I can usually take anything in stride, but when it all piles up its gotta go somewhere. My whole life people have done things for me, because I can't. They get things for me, they bathe me, they piss me, they put me on the can, they even brush my teeth and shave me. I'm ok with this because I understand that to live, I need to depend on others. Only for certain things though. Throughout my schooling, I've had aids to help me do the physical parts of attending school. The problem is, there's a fine line between doing the physical part of my work and doing all of it. That line was crossed way too many times and because of that, when I finally put a stop to it, I made it really hard for myself by stopping it right before I started college. Now, last semester I had it relatively easy; only taking one challenging course and one I could pass while getting head. I aced that one while getting a C in the other with minimal stress. The reason I think I got a C was because I'm not used to having to motivate myself to do things, since I always had someone else to tell me when to do it. That, and I think I have a problem with laziness, again stemming from having too much help as a kid. This semester I'm taking two challenging classes and after my first day, I'm scared shitless. I don't know if I'm up to the task physically or mentally. I just wish I knew.